I Drive Myself Crazy

Trying to be perfect is a pain in the ass.

Do you ever wake up on some mornings wanting to push out the most amount of work possible but your body, mind and spirit just isn’t in the right space to do it?

That’s what happened today and I drove myself crazy trying to work. For me, when I reach that point of actually losing the enjoyment of working on something, all my inspiration and creativity plummets.

Sometimes, walking away for even a few hours can do tremendous good for an artist.

It just so happens that my stubbornness got the better of me today. I worked until all I could think about was crawling into a ball and being alone.

I just wanted this new book launch to be perfect but I’m not sure how that’s turning out. My heart’s in the right place but something is bringing me down these last few days.

Sometimes, I get lost in all the noise my brain makes. But, in all this madness, I always learn valuable lessons.

For some reason my heart feels full of emotions and rather than try to articulate the words to describe what’s going on in my heart and head, I’d rather call it a night.

Thanks for reading and thanks for the support!

The big epiphany is NOW free on Amazon Kindle. Give it a read and let me know if you can relate to my personal story of disease and overcoming it 🙂

Here’s the link – Click Here

Oh, yeah, INFINITY will be releasing on March 3rd! I’m so excited for you to read this fiction story, it’s so special!

Have a fantastic weekend.

Z.K 

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Rewriting And Editing Infinity

Okay. So, I have some good news and some bad news. 

I finished the first draft of Infinity. Woohoo! It’s safe to say that this was a pain in the ass story to write simply because of how weird the plot is. 

The bad news is that I’m writing an alternative version. Here’s the thing, I have two major plots for the story and although I chose a more sci-fi approach for the first, I feel like I owe it to myself to write the deep almost supernatural version of Infinity exploring death. 

It will be done within the week and then after editing the two, I’ll decide which version deserves to see the light of day. 

I apologize for not posting at all last week but I wanted to report back to you guys once I actually completed Infinity. 

On the plus side, I found a book I wrote a long time ago, nonfiction, that explores optimism, confidence and coming of age. I’ll probably publish that this week and a lot of it details my personal struggles over the last couple years. 

I’ll let you guys know as soon as it comes out and during a free promo. 

Here’s the cover I had designed. Give me your thoughts 🙂

Catch you later.

Z.K

Basic Hate, Hate Basic

You’re nothing like the facade on the outside. Boring,tasteless,overwhelming pride. You wear it with such grace. You’re nothing like this painted image, at best you’re nothing more than hateful. Your bitter face wears that hideous make believe smile, at best your inside is nothing more than bile. You’re nothing like the seasons. Warm,cold,fresh and comforting, at best you’re nothing more than a well dressed bag of lies. At basic, you’re everything that I hate and more.

What happened with this short piece is that it got me thinking of what it’s like to not embrace the person you truly are. It’s so easy to fall into a dark pit that consumes your personality until you’re left with an ugly skeleton. I think this is more of a self reflective piece of someone looking at their self and feeling upset by how they’ve embrace a very superficial one dimensional personality. There were these short intervals in my own life which I experienced this kind of low so I figured writing about how I disapproved of myself at these times in the past would be reflective and progressive.

On a side note, it struck me that my cats have something very common about their names – Jerry, snowy, blacky, gaffy, and now velvy…. Courtesy of my mom.

Over To You – 

I ask you, have you embraced your inner beauty yet?