I Drive Myself Crazy

Trying to be perfect is a pain in the ass.

Do you ever wake up on some mornings wanting to push out the most amount of work possible but your body, mind and spirit just isn’t in the right space to do it?

That’s what happened today and I drove myself crazy trying to work. For me, when I reach that point of actually losing the enjoyment of working on something, all my inspiration and creativity plummets.

Sometimes, walking away for even a few hours can do tremendous good for an artist.

It just so happens that my stubbornness got the better of me today. I worked until all I could think about was crawling into a ball and being alone.

I just wanted this new book launch to be perfect but I’m not sure how that’s turning out. My heart’s in the right place but something is bringing me down these last few days.

Sometimes, I get lost in all the noise my brain makes. But, in all this madness, I always learn valuable lessons.

For some reason my heart feels full of emotions and rather than try to articulate the words to describe what’s going on in my heart and head, I’d rather call it a night.

Thanks for reading and thanks for the support!

The big epiphany is NOW free on Amazon Kindle. Give it a read and let me know if you can relate to my personal story of disease and overcoming it 🙂

Here’s the link – Click Here

Oh, yeah, INFINITY will be releasing on March 3rd! I’m so excited for you to read this fiction story, it’s so special!

Have a fantastic weekend.

Z.K 

Rewriting And Editing Infinity

Okay. So, I have some good news and some bad news. 

I finished the first draft of Infinity. Woohoo! It’s safe to say that this was a pain in the ass story to write simply because of how weird the plot is. 

The bad news is that I’m writing an alternative version. Here’s the thing, I have two major plots for the story and although I chose a more sci-fi approach for the first, I feel like I owe it to myself to write the deep almost supernatural version of Infinity exploring death. 

It will be done within the week and then after editing the two, I’ll decide which version deserves to see the light of day. 

I apologize for not posting at all last week but I wanted to report back to you guys once I actually completed Infinity. 

On the plus side, I found a book I wrote a long time ago, nonfiction, that explores optimism, confidence and coming of age. I’ll probably publish that this week and a lot of it details my personal struggles over the last couple years. 

I’ll let you guys know as soon as it comes out and during a free promo. 

Here’s the cover I had designed. Give me your thoughts 🙂

Catch you later.

Z.K

I Took Some Time To Rejuvinate

Sometimes things get to a breaking point and you can either break or take a step back to figure out where you’ve overstepped. 

In my case, I took a step back to find out hat triggered my fall. 

I’m the type of person who works on emotions. But, emotions are erratic. Some days I can write all day and enjoy it whilst others not so much. 

Results are more familiar with systems than emotions. Usually, the winner is the individual who worked the smartest consistently. 

I’ve been promoting this idea of pure hardwork but i have just learnt how important working smart is. 

Combine the two and you will be hitting goals daily. 

My new plan is currently in progress. I want to figure out a lifestyle that promotes writing rather than writing around my lifestyle. 
After all, writing is my life. 

It feels good to be back after a week in comparison to 6 months (yup, that’s how long my breaks used to be)

Z.K

Over 120 Downloads Yesterday!

Hoorah!

I’m joyed that my new non-fiction book, The Productivity Handbook For Lazy People, was downloaded over 120 times on the first day of promotions

Now, it may not be the highest I’ve had in a day (976 downloads :p), but it’s certainly a great start for the new year.

Thank you for all my blog readers who took the time to download and share the book with others, it means A LOT to me!

I spent most of today working on INFINITY, trying to figure out a few details that could spice things up even more. My goal is to create an entertaining book from start to finish. I get bored when I read stories that focus on a slow build up.

Aside from that, I resubmitted new covers for old books and worked on adding in additional chapters to a revised edition of How To Build Good Writing Habits.

It’s been a great week of work but by 4pm, I literally dozed off after sitting down for just a minute. I’m THAT tired.

Once again, thanks for the support. For those of you who haven’t downloaded my new book, you can find it HERE.

Have a wonderful weekend.

Z.K

Working All Day And Published A New Book!

Hoorah!

I managed to polish and publish an eBook I have been working on for quite some time. It was quite a daunting task to study, test and evaluate different techniques and principles on productivity before applying it to my book but everything worked out pretty darn well.

Don’t worry, this isn’t a sales pitch. If anything, I’ll be running a free book promo from thursday so if you are interested, hit this link and grab it if you’re interested in checking out what I’ve been working on during spare time.

Okay, back to my life. Strangely enough, I feel kind of addicted to working. No more can I sit around and daydream or pass time in front of the telly. Most of the time I’m either thinking about writing or actually writing.

Things haven’t been this way for a long time and the momentum is building on the daily.

Other than that, there’s nothing much to report beside hitting that portion of my story where things can get rather daunting. Fishing out all the details while spinning conflict and controversy is a challenge I’m still trying to master.

I can’t wait to share INFINITY with you guys.

Until then, let the grind keep grinding.

Z.K

I’m not concerned about being perfect anymore

I’ll be the first to admit that I’m my biggest critic. For a long time, nothing I wrote was good enough for me, regardless of what other people would say. Compliments were forgotten in a heartbeat and problems were on my mind all the time.

The idea of being perfect riddled my brain with insecurity, excessive self criticism and doubt.

I think this was the main reason why I quit writing for a few months. It became too daunting and stressful.

Nowadays, I don’t care much for perfection. If I make a mistake, I’ll learn from it and get it right the next time. I’m not going to destroy my psyche with the unwarranted expectation to be perfect.

Losers focus on winners. Winners focus on winning.

To hell with trying to be a perfect writer for people. I just want to be the greatest writer even with imperfections. Because I’ll tell you what, I can write for my entire life if it feels as good as it feels now 🙂

Today I’m going to take a break from fiction and write a few thousand words on my productivity book. I’ve found some great techniques to get things done so I want to share that with you and other like minded people.

Have an epic weekend and I’ll catch you on monday.

Z.K

The Train Keeps On Moving

It’s the new year and I’m sure you’ve set a number of resolutions, as have I!

One of the most important resolutions I’ve made for 2017 is to write every single day. The first few days always feels great but after some time, I noticed how difficult it started to feel.

Most people sell this idea that making important changes feels good. Sacrificing relaxation to work will feel good. Cutting out sugar from your diet will feel good. Exercise will feel good.

All of these things WILL feel good but the word that often goes unnoticed is WILL. You will lose weight if you diet…but, it takes time. It’s a destination. For some time, you probably won’t lose any weight. But, it will happen.

That period between feeling good or gaining the benefits of some change is DIFFICULT. When you work instead of relax, it will be difficult. When you cut out sugar, it will be difficult. When you start working out, it will be difficult.

Knowing that these things aren’t actually easy but will eventually start to feel easy and simple is better than having unrealistic expectations. I’ve experienced failure before, especially as a writer, so I know the expectations of blogging every day will be both difficult and easy.

It will be these two things for as long as I keep writing. The train keeps on moving for as long as it keeps moving. You will keep writing for as long as you keep writing, regardless of whether it’s meant to be easy or difficult.

So, I’ve decided to change my expectations and prepare for all my resolutions to be difficult. Knowing that I may miss a day or two doesn’t defeat me. I’m able to bounce back and that seems to be attributed to knowing that change is difficult until it becomes easy.

If you’re going through hell, keep going.

Write your heart out, my friend!

Z.K