I Drive Myself Crazy

Trying to be perfect is a pain in the ass.

Do you ever wake up on some mornings wanting to push out the most amount of work possible but your body, mind and spirit just isn’t in the right space to do it?

That’s what happened today and I drove myself crazy trying to work. For me, when I reach that point of actually losing the enjoyment of working on something, all my inspiration and creativity plummets.

Sometimes, walking away for even a few hours can do tremendous good for an artist.

It just so happens that my stubbornness got the better of me today. I worked until all I could think about was crawling into a ball and being alone.

I just wanted this new book launch to be perfect but I’m not sure how that’s turning out. My heart’s in the right place but something is bringing me down these last few days.

Sometimes, I get lost in all the noise my brain makes. But, in all this madness, I always learn valuable lessons.

For some reason my heart feels full of emotions and rather than try to articulate the words to describe what’s going on in my heart and head, I’d rather call it a night.

Thanks for reading and thanks for the support!

The big epiphany is NOW free on Amazon Kindle. Give it a read and let me know if you can relate to my personal story of disease and overcoming it 🙂

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Oh, yeah, INFINITY will be releasing on March 3rd! I’m so excited for you to read this fiction story, it’s so special!

Have a fantastic weekend.

Z.K 

It’s Not All Butterflies And Rainbows

Some days suck! They really do.

Forget about the plight of burnout, sometimes life throws circumstances at you that steal away built up momentum.

That’s exactly what happened these last 3 days. I’m sitting here, typing this right now after having a busy day that is completely unrelated to my goals.

I’m frustrated but a huge part of me is learning the true meaning of life and what it takes to build a career.

Nothing important in life is accomplished in a straight path. Everything meaningful goes through highs and lows. I’d go so far as to compare it to a zig zag line.

I took care of a sick family member today whilst handling all the chores and responsibilities that come with keeping a household running. Couple that with the desire to just sleep and you have the perfect recipe for frustration. Weirdly enough, even with the lack of inspiration and energy, I managed to write a 1000 words. It’s nowhere near to being my best day but I appreciate the fact that I tried and made an attempt.

It may not be enough but it’s a step forward from yesterday and for as long as I’m always a step forward compared to where I was the previous day, I can be happy.

Success is clearly full of challenges and hurdles. If you love what you do, the misery experienced will be different than normal misery. I’m working on an explanation but until then, let’s just leave it at that.

The year has just begun. We can make 2017 a great year! I know we can. Hang in there and keep working.

Z.K

Not Much Writing Done Today

It looks like I’m human after all and burnout is a reality. Damn. I’m not beating myself up too much about it because there’s not many excuses I’m making for not getting a lot of work done today.

It was hot and I was lazy. As upsetting as that is to me, I think the best thing would be to work later tonight to catch up. Sure, I could start fresh tomorrow morning but I don’t want to take the chance of falling off the bandwagon.

When trying to build habits, you know how important it is to be consistent. That’s why I’ll make a fair attempt to write for about 2 hours tonight before sleeping.

The weekend was pretty damn good. I actually worked -_- and that’s probably resulted in the laziness that cloaked itself around my mind and body today. Wait, let me stop myself right there. No excuses!

I do hope you had a fantastic weekend. I managed to get out of the house on Saturday and Sunday. We watched a movie as well as indulged in some spicy fries :p It was a good weekend for me!

Let me know what you got up to.

Z.K

When People Are Working, We Are Working Harder!

Whenever I feel tired, sleepy, in pain and uncomfortable, the title of this post are words I repeat in my mind to motivate me.

I’m not interested in talent and natural born gifts. Screw that! All I care about is outworking anyone and everyone. The first to start and the last to stop. If that cannot bring about massive success, nothing else can!

Believe me when I tell you that I was dog tired all day. All I got was 5 hours of sleep before being disturbed by hooligan taxi drivers who blast music at 6 am in the morning. But, that’s okay. Let them do that, I’ll wake up and do what they never will – build a legacy!

I realize how I sound right now so maybe it’s best if I hit the bed but just know that I’m about to sleep after writing 3000 words, editing a blog template from scratch, working on my CV, exercising, doing chores, working out my marketing strategy and redesigning a cover for a revised book.

Now, I think a good night sleep will be my reward. If you’re having a tough day, just keep pushing forward. There’s always going to be someone not far behind trying to overtake you. Don’t let them get that upper hand.

Work until you can’t no more and then work a little more.

Z.K

The Train Keeps On Moving

It’s the new year and I’m sure you’ve set a number of resolutions, as have I!

One of the most important resolutions I’ve made for 2017 is to write every single day. The first few days always feels great but after some time, I noticed how difficult it started to feel.

Most people sell this idea that making important changes feels good. Sacrificing relaxation to work will feel good. Cutting out sugar from your diet will feel good. Exercise will feel good.

All of these things WILL feel good but the word that often goes unnoticed is WILL. You will lose weight if you diet…but, it takes time. It’s a destination. For some time, you probably won’t lose any weight. But, it will happen.

That period between feeling good or gaining the benefits of some change is DIFFICULT. When you work instead of relax, it will be difficult. When you cut out sugar, it will be difficult. When you start working out, it will be difficult.

Knowing that these things aren’t actually easy but will eventually start to feel easy and simple is better than having unrealistic expectations. I’ve experienced failure before, especially as a writer, so I know the expectations of blogging every day will be both difficult and easy.

It will be these two things for as long as I keep writing. The train keeps on moving for as long as it keeps moving. You will keep writing for as long as you keep writing, regardless of whether it’s meant to be easy or difficult.

So, I’ve decided to change my expectations and prepare for all my resolutions to be difficult. Knowing that I may miss a day or two doesn’t defeat me. I’m able to bounce back and that seems to be attributed to knowing that change is difficult until it becomes easy.

If you’re going through hell, keep going.

Write your heart out, my friend!

Z.K

2017 – A Brand New Start To An Old Journey

I started this blog back in 2013 and in that time I’ve committed, left, recommitted and left again until I abandoned Zakwrites for most of 2016.

It disappoints me because I genuinely enjoy blogging. God bless the internet, am I right?

Since it’s the new year and most people, including myself, are motivated at the chance of doing things right this time around, I’ve decided to make 2017 the year of blogging. And no, I’m not interested in blogging for money or fame or whatever other shiny idea the guru’s of the web try and sell.

The only thing I want to truly do is write and there’s no better medium than a blog on the big wide web.

More importantly, I’m at that point in my life where I need to decide what I want to do forever. Law or writing?

For now, I have 2017 to give to my dreams which is why I want to write as much as I can. Let’s make this year count and here’s to the dream of becoming a bestselling author 🙂

All the best for 2017 and let’s make our dreams come true!

Z.K