I’m Scared

What if I won’t succeed at writing? It scares me to watch everyone else pursue the orthodox path of finding a job whereas I’m pursuing my dream of writing. 

I have financial goals too. I want to buy a beautiful house by the sea and live my days crafting beautiful words that readers enjoy. 

I want it so bad. I’m sacrificing many months to give this a fair shot but the fear of failure has finally showed its ugly face.

From right now, I’m making some huge changes in my life starting with the amount of time I spend working each day. 

I’ve set a daily quota of 7000 words for 6 days a week and I plan to release many books in the next 6 months. I am going to give my entire life to writing and God willing, I succeed. 

To be honest, I don’t have much to say because I’m in a state of panic (lol) but rather than breaking apart, I’m directing all of it towards working harder. 

Let’s see if I can truly succeed as an author. Let’s see…

Z.K

I Took Some Time To Rejuvinate

Sometimes things get to a breaking point and you can either break or take a step back to figure out where you’ve overstepped. 

In my case, I took a step back to find out hat triggered my fall. 

I’m the type of person who works on emotions. But, emotions are erratic. Some days I can write all day and enjoy it whilst others not so much. 

Results are more familiar with systems than emotions. Usually, the winner is the individual who worked the smartest consistently. 

I’ve been promoting this idea of pure hardwork but i have just learnt how important working smart is. 

Combine the two and you will be hitting goals daily. 

My new plan is currently in progress. I want to figure out a lifestyle that promotes writing rather than writing around my lifestyle. 
After all, writing is my life. 

It feels good to be back after a week in comparison to 6 months (yup, that’s how long my breaks used to be)

Z.K

I’m Debating With Myself

Can I manage 5000 words a day or will it shove me down a mountain straight into a pit of burnout like last week?

I don’t like to plateau. In my mind, I feel like I’m good enough to write at an elite level. But, while showering, it dawned on me that quantity does not guarantee quality.

I see a shit ton of people publishing these niche books on things like microwaves and coconut oil and I cringe. I don’t want to be one of those writers. I don’t want to ever do things for ‘easy money’. There’s no such thing as easy money. 

I strongly believe a time is quickly approaching when readers won’t be generous enough to give an author a second chance if they publish 20 page books that are nothing more than a sales gimmick.

Those guys will not last on Amazon. Which is why all my books will be nothing less than a 100 pages. I don’t want to cheat people of their money. If anything, I want them to feel like buying my books is a solid deal. 

Quality is the way to go. So the debate is more focused on whether or not I can maintain a certain standard for 5000 words a day.

I’ll give it a shot tomorrow and report back. 

Z.K

Working Through The Weekend

I am highly disappointed with myself. From having an incredibly super productive week last week to being in a state of burnout this week, I can’t help but feel the wasted time has undone the progress of all my effort. 

However, you either win or learn. And I have learnt how to pace myself to prevent this from happening. 

1. Hit the bed Early! 

2. Plan for many days in advance. 

3. Draw up a system and stick with it. Flexibility doesn’t work for someone like me. I’ll end up procrastinating. 

4. Find an emotional outlet. Being couped up in a room writing can often lead to emotional frustration and a build up of unused emotions. It is important to plug back into the world weekly. 

5. Avoid the news. It’s depression and distracting. 

6. Play around. Have some fun. All work isn’t s recipe for long term survival. 

I’ll be working through the weekend to try and get the momentum going. 

Talk on Monday. 

Z.K

It’s Not All Butterflies And Rainbows

Some days suck! They really do.

Forget about the plight of burnout, sometimes life throws circumstances at you that steal away built up momentum.

That’s exactly what happened these last 3 days. I’m sitting here, typing this right now after having a busy day that is completely unrelated to my goals.

I’m frustrated but a huge part of me is learning the true meaning of life and what it takes to build a career.

Nothing important in life is accomplished in a straight path. Everything meaningful goes through highs and lows. I’d go so far as to compare it to a zig zag line.

I took care of a sick family member today whilst handling all the chores and responsibilities that come with keeping a household running. Couple that with the desire to just sleep and you have the perfect recipe for frustration. Weirdly enough, even with the lack of inspiration and energy, I managed to write a 1000 words. It’s nowhere near to being my best day but I appreciate the fact that I tried and made an attempt.

It may not be enough but it’s a step forward from yesterday and for as long as I’m always a step forward compared to where I was the previous day, I can be happy.

Success is clearly full of challenges and hurdles. If you love what you do, the misery experienced will be different than normal misery. I’m working on an explanation but until then, let’s just leave it at that.

The year has just begun. We can make 2017 a great year! I know we can. Hang in there and keep working.

Z.K

Not Much Writing Done Today

It looks like I’m human after all and burnout is a reality. Damn. I’m not beating myself up too much about it because there’s not many excuses I’m making for not getting a lot of work done today.

It was hot and I was lazy. As upsetting as that is to me, I think the best thing would be to work later tonight to catch up. Sure, I could start fresh tomorrow morning but I don’t want to take the chance of falling off the bandwagon.

When trying to build habits, you know how important it is to be consistent. That’s why I’ll make a fair attempt to write for about 2 hours tonight before sleeping.

The weekend was pretty damn good. I actually worked -_- and that’s probably resulted in the laziness that cloaked itself around my mind and body today. Wait, let me stop myself right there. No excuses!

I do hope you had a fantastic weekend. I managed to get out of the house on Saturday and Sunday. We watched a movie as well as indulged in some spicy fries :p It was a good weekend for me!

Let me know what you got up to.

Z.K

When People Are Working, We Are Working Harder!

Whenever I feel tired, sleepy, in pain and uncomfortable, the title of this post are words I repeat in my mind to motivate me.

I’m not interested in talent and natural born gifts. Screw that! All I care about is outworking anyone and everyone. The first to start and the last to stop. If that cannot bring about massive success, nothing else can!

Believe me when I tell you that I was dog tired all day. All I got was 5 hours of sleep before being disturbed by hooligan taxi drivers who blast music at 6 am in the morning. But, that’s okay. Let them do that, I’ll wake up and do what they never will – build a legacy!

I realize how I sound right now so maybe it’s best if I hit the bed but just know that I’m about to sleep after writing 3000 words, editing a blog template from scratch, working on my CV, exercising, doing chores, working out my marketing strategy and redesigning a cover for a revised book.

Now, I think a good night sleep will be my reward. If you’re having a tough day, just keep pushing forward. There’s always going to be someone not far behind trying to overtake you. Don’t let them get that upper hand.

Work until you can’t no more and then work a little more.

Z.K