I Drive Myself Crazy

Trying to be perfect is a pain in the ass.

Do you ever wake up on some mornings wanting to push out the most amount of work possible but your body, mind and spirit just isn’t in the right space to do it?

That’s what happened today and I drove myself crazy trying to work. For me, when I reach that point of actually losing the enjoyment of working on something, all my inspiration and creativity plummets.

Sometimes, walking away for even a few hours can do tremendous good for an artist.

It just so happens that my stubbornness got the better of me today. I worked until all I could think about was crawling into a ball and being alone.

I just wanted this new book launch to be perfect but I’m not sure how that’s turning out. My heart’s in the right place but something is bringing me down these last few days.

Sometimes, I get lost in all the noise my brain makes. But, in all this madness, I always learn valuable lessons.

For some reason my heart feels full of emotions and rather than try to articulate the words to describe what’s going on in my heart and head, I’d rather call it a night.

Thanks for reading and thanks for the support!

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Have a fantastic weekend.

Z.K 

The Train Keeps On Moving

It’s the new year and I’m sure you’ve set a number of resolutions, as have I!

One of the most important resolutions I’ve made for 2017 is to write every single day. The first few days always feels great but after some time, I noticed how difficult it started to feel.

Most people sell this idea that making important changes feels good. Sacrificing relaxation to work will feel good. Cutting out sugar from your diet will feel good. Exercise will feel good.

All of these things WILL feel good but the word that often goes unnoticed is WILL. You will lose weight if you diet…but, it takes time. It’s a destination. For some time, you probably won’t lose any weight. But, it will happen.

That period between feeling good or gaining the benefits of some change is DIFFICULT. When you work instead of relax, it will be difficult. When you cut out sugar, it will be difficult. When you start working out, it will be difficult.

Knowing that these things aren’t actually easy but will eventually start to feel easy and simple is better than having unrealistic expectations. I’ve experienced failure before, especially as a writer, so I know the expectations of blogging every day will be both difficult and easy.

It will be these two things for as long as I keep writing. The train keeps on moving for as long as it keeps moving. You will keep writing for as long as you keep writing, regardless of whether it’s meant to be easy or difficult.

So, I’ve decided to change my expectations and prepare for all my resolutions to be difficult. Knowing that I may miss a day or two doesn’t defeat me. I’m able to bounce back and that seems to be attributed to knowing that change is difficult until it becomes easy.

If you’re going through hell, keep going.

Write your heart out, my friend!

Z.K